Last time I left you with the hope of an answer, but the test results we were waiting on came back looking normal. 

The only consensus seems to be that I had something go on at the beginning of all of this that caused some severe inflammation and that’s causing the continuing pain (no one is even 100% about that).

I’m continuing to see the chiropractor, and that seems to be helping some. I go back next week to see if there’s anything more we can test for or be doing.

God’s been showing me a lot since I’ve been here. About Him, myself, my priorities, my relationship with HIm… In a few ways, I understand why I’m in this position. I see why He brought me to this new season where the hope I could find is Him. There’s definitely SO much my feeble mind can’t understand, but one of the biggest thing I’ve learned through all of this is that understanding isn’t what life is all about. It’s about obedience, surrender, and living a life that gives God glory in everything. Sometimes we get so caught up in the why that we miss what God’s doing right in front of us. It’s definitely okay to ask why, but when the questioning stems from doubt in His very nature, that’s when it becomes an obstacle.

I’ve wrestled with it. Over and over and over again. I’ve had a few moments where it felt like God said “Kacey, cut it out. Just fix your eyes right here on my face. I’m not going to leave you. You aren’t alone in this. Just trust me.”

He’s so faithful to remind me every day that He’s got this. Somedays I’m seriously overwhelmed by His love for me, and taken back by how patient He is with me.

I pray that You are reminded today that He sees you, He’s got you, and He’s loves you more than you’ll ever know.

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“My ears had heard of you, but now my eyes have seen you.” Job 42:5